聲 / Voice
by Helena Tang
To record someone is a small theft of breath,
says a poet I once read. I believed this. It is known a tape
can keep you living in someone else’s mouth.
How it is first to sing at karaoke, my father
hoarding each note on a cheap cassette deck—
flattened, hissed, stripped of the air between syllables.
Each chorus filed in a shoebox of plastic shells.
Reading Barthes, I wonder if the microphone is
a thirsty ear that must drink to remember. My father
records more now—not songs, but speeches:
my grandmother blessing her eldest son at New Year,
her hands folded over a packet of tea leaves.
The echo of her cough, the rustle of paper.
There’s a tape of her naming every cousin
in the family, pausing to laugh at her own mistakes,
a fragment I rewind as I enter her empty house,
my recorder the only machine that can keep her.